Posted by roo on March 23, 2001, at 13:31:39
In reply to Re: I totally relate..., posted by Mr. Scott on March 23, 2001, at 13:03:14
Mr. Scott--I've had that same fantasy...wishing I
could take a year off life so I could just withdraw,
go crazy, and hopefully get better, find peace again.
I do feel like my depression going off drugs is worse
than it was before drugs. I don't know if that's because
I got used to what it feels like to feel good, so I
have less tolerance for feeling bad, or because the drugs
change your brain chemistry in some ways that make it
worse to go off. I wonder how long you'd have to go
through withdrawal hell to get to a more normal place.
I've only been able to make it 1 or 2 months at the
most before going back on. And then you can never really
know if you ever WOULD get to a better normal place
after awhile, you would just be guessing. It would be
one thing if you were going through withdrawal hell, but
you KNEW that if you could last for another 3 months
everything would be okay. I wonder how long it takes
heroin users who have been using for years to completely
withdraw--and then do they have to go on AD's just
to cope? I'm really rambling....I just wish we knew
more about this stuff. I'm grateful for the peace
that drugs have given me--and I'm grateful we have
the option of taking them. I just never dreamed I
would have to take them for this long, that it might have
to be a "forever" thing, or that getting
off of them would be so hard. *sigh* Sometimes
I do feel hopeful that a permanant, non-drug cure
will come about though...(just to add a positive note).
have been users for years and years and get clean
poster:roo
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