Posted by katrina on March 30, 2001, at 8:40:35
In reply to Re: tell me more about the lamictal, please » katrina, posted by Cece on March 29, 2001, at 23:21:03
Much like you and yet probably very different...I am a recovering alcoholic and have been sober 4+ years. I am 31 now. This beast was waiting for me so let me tell ya that the drinking and drugging got REALLY bad before I stopped and yes, it was like gasoline on a fire with a mood disorder. Anyway, I am successful, smart and cute...but behind that has been mind numbing depression, periods of hypomania/aggression/irritability, etc. Of course, a pdoc put me on SSRI's, which are unhelpful. Since I have been sober (thus aware of what's going on) I can track my mood cycles within the year, within the month, the week and sometimes within the day. My depression is: hopelessness, extreme fatigue, self-loathing, suicidal plans/thoughts, huge desire to self-injure, but I do not, Isolation, A PIT--feel like I weigh 200 pounds, ya know. It can last 2 months at the lowest point and shift to mildly horrible at other times. I totally get that simmering idea big time or the inner anguish!! Anyway, I was not getting better on SSRI's and don't tolerate them too well. The hypomania periods seemed productive to me yet the spending and aggression were uncomfortable, ya know and afterwards the shift to depression is horrendous. My last pit felt bottomless-scary. HENCE, I tried zyprexa and what a difference it pulled me out of a pit yet pooped out and thus my transition to lamictal with my 50 mgs of zoloft because I know I need the stability. I switched to geodon, but zyprexa gave me better sleep so the jury is still out, but I have hope today and am giving the lamictal a shot. (day 2 25mgs) I will see Dubovsky in Denver in May. I am sure I've left a lot out, but in a nutshell...so wonderful of you to communicate...the common struggle is unique and yet not. Katrina
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