Posted by bissie66 on April 17, 2001, at 8:56:50
In reply to Re: Ruminating » bissie66, posted by Cece on April 14, 2001, at 23:32:57
Hi Cece! i loved your post. i too only heard the term ruminating on this board, but it fits me perfectly too. if only i could stop my brain from engaging in negative activities! what kind of meds are zyprexa and geodon? i take celexa 30 mg. and neurontin 1600 mg. i've never talked to my pdoc specifically about ruminating -- i tend to feel self-concious about always diagnosing myself. were zyprexa and/or geodon prescribed specifically for ruminating?
i know what you mean amout seeing your summer-time childhood memories flash before you. i am recalling terror-filled summers. absolutely awful.
take care! bissie
> Hello-
> This is so interesting to me- for the longest time I (and my recently ex-pdoc) have thought that I had some kind of reverse seaonal affective disorder, as I get very depressed by mid-summer and am not okay until October.
> But last summer, I had been taking Lamictal for awhile which was lifting my mood, and as I started to sink into summer depression I caught myself and saw memories fly by of childhood summer misery. I realized that association was at least part, if not all of how this cycle developed for me.
> I only recently found the word "ruminating" here on P-B, and realize that it fits me and a good part of my 'problem' to a tee.
> So, I'm trying 'anti-ruminating' meds. I briefly tried Zyxprexa, which I could tell right away helped, but I was afraid to take a decent dose because of weight gain. Now I'm trying Geodon- can't tell yet if it will help, and am a bit disappointed that I didn't get the immediate hit that I got with Zyprexa.
> Do you take any meds for your cud-chewing?
> I love your description of "warm-weather memories"- it's like how smells can transport us to another time and place.
> Good wishes,
> Cece
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> > the newly warm weather seems to send warm-weather memories to my brain -- so, for example, i'll have a warm-weather memory of taking my kids to play group in the summer and i'll ruminate over how i don't get to do that anymore (b.c. i'm divorced, only have the kids 50% of the time, and work full-time now. it leads to depression about my situation.) or i ruminate about bad things that happened in warm weater, for example, the depression i went through in april/may '99, the horrible fight i had with my then-husband 2 years ago in the summer that was the final straw leading us to separate. or memories of terrible, anxiety-filled summer vacations with my family in childhood.
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