Posted by Jarlath on May 12, 2001, at 13:09:56
In reply to Re: celexa, guilt and lying Jarlath, posted by mila on May 10, 2001, at 18:26:39
Thanks for your responses. I am glad to hear that others have experienced these changes. Recently I have been struggling with whether to stay on the drug or stop it. My depression has been more situational(?) falling in love with a friend of 5 years and hurting my wife of 23 years. I am still in a time of trying to figure things out.
My wife thinks I am crazy for continuing the drug knowing of its effects on my guilt/honesty centers. She thinks it has made me lose my integrity and has changed me in a negative way as a person (but I guess she would).
My MD and my friend feel I should continue it to avoid some suicidal thoughts I was having and help me function.
I like the way it makes me feel and I feel I am the same decent person, just with less guilt about my extra-marital relationship. I still find enjoyment in other areas of life.
I ask myself the same questions you posed (kind of): In the next few months I need to make some important decisions about where my life (marriage) is headed. Do I want to do this "un-depressed but drug-induced state" but with a different viewpoint than I have had all my life (perhaps healthier and what I need)? or do I want to do it in a probably depressed, but a "who I am" state? At this point I don't know which one is even normal.
My mental health up until 3 mo before taking this drug was great. My life was great and my marriage (as I consciously percieved it) for the most part was decent and good (although now scutinizing it with our couselors, there were certainly unmet needs)
This is all probably more info than you wanted or needed. I appreciate the time you took for your postings.
Thanks, Jarlath
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