Posted by niss on May 21, 2001, at 14:45:56
In reply to Help, what does this sound like?, posted by loosmrbls on May 21, 2001, at 9:33:33
>the webiste is:
www.stresscenter.com
it is the midwest center for anxiety..the name is lucinda rather than leticia...
I have made references to my diagnsosis and some of my care before, but I want to give the full story and find out what people think.
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> Until about three years ago, I was a "Type A" person, did very well in college and was in excelling in a professional school.
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> All of a sudden, I began feeling very disconnected witht the world, could not experience pleasure, felt "flat" lost motivation, and had no energy. Went to my doc, was started on Prozac for depression. Felt no better, so saw a pdoc. Diagnosed me with "double depression" Went through several typical AD's, had one or two "possible" hypomanic episodes (increased energy, felt great, not sure about sleep) within days of meds, then pooped out within a couple of weeks.
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> Went to new doc, told may also have an "anxiety disorder" (did have lots of anxiety) -- started on celexa and buspar. Terrible, so changed buspar to Klonopin. Slid into suicidal depression.
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> While in hospital, told I may have "bipolar II" due to (in my opinion) equivocal hypomanic episodes (while on AD) so started on lithium, stayed on celexa. After 8 days, came out of hospital and had TRUE hypomanic episode -- WAY high energy, euphoric, energy like crazy (again on AD). So they increased the lithium until I felt sick. Lowered the dose, and I felt OK. For a short time.
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> I then, over a week or two, began to feel very agitated, irritible, had lots of violent/hostile ruminating thoughts (fantasies, no one I knew and no impulses to do them), sleep was crazy (usually could not sleep but sometimes slept alot), could not sit still. VERY uncomfortable. To the point where I wanted to O.D. on lithium to end it all. Told a social worker, back in hospital.
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> Over three weeks, taken off all meds and switched to Depakote, dose titrated to 1250mg. Than Zoloft added at 50mg. Initially OK, but then depression began kicking in hard again. Atypical type (eating too much, sleeping too much, NO energy. Completely withdrew from wife and child, they were thinking of leaving to stay with in-laws and me go to hospital (except I wasn't suicidal).
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> On my pdoc's advice, I had stopped the zoloft a few weeks ago. With my depression moderately severe, I deicided to stop the Depakote too. And to numb the pain, I did a few shots of alcohol (not an alcoholic).
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> I immediately began to feel better. I mean, within 24 hours. I am now 3 days off all meds, and I can think better, am more interactive, and besides some mild ruminating thoughts (usually bad memories or guilt thoughts) am much improved.
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> PLEASE tell me what you think!
poster:niss
thread:63802
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