Posted by patrick on May 28, 2001, at 12:02:59
In reply to Please help! latest... adrafinil trial, posted by JonW on March 9, 2001, at 11:28:58
I am just like you.
I'm on Wellbutrin. It helps somewhat, but I still wake up with depression. I also take Neurontin, which was initially a Nardil enhancer. Off Nardil, now, thank God, and getting by. However, the key drug for me is Klonopin. If I try to cut the 2.5 mgs that I'm on, to 2mg, bang! acute social phobia/anxiety/panic attacks. I think the benzos are driving this whole thing. That's why I'm so curious about the neurotransmitter GABA.
Anyway, I only drink on Fridays. However, I can't stop at one drink on that Friday, because I get so pumped up to party/living for the moment/hanging with friends, etc., so I'll have 6-10 drinks on that Friday. The next 3-4 days I'm in depression hell. The suffering is intense. Then by the next Friday, I feel fine, and I'll do it all over again. I forget about the prior week's pain. It's like getting knocked to the canvass and getting up only to get knocked down again.
Finally, I lose all emotional control on these Fridays when I drink -- like I'm possessed. I constantly put myself in danger on these Fridays and then I pay over the next 3-4 days.
I'm trying to quit alcohol, because I have atypical depression and I can't drink. I wonder if I'm an alcoholic. I wonder if I stop drinking (and it’s only 1x/week), will my atypical depression (social phobia, GAD, depression, anxiety/panic attacks) go away.
Patrick
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