Posted by SLS on June 2, 2001, at 12:03:23
In reply to Me thinks this effexor may be working, posted by geekUK on June 2, 2001, at 7:34:37
> Hey all,
> though I might post some good news. About three days ago after 6 weeks of 150mg day effexor XL I started to feel better. Calmer somehow. I had two days before an exam I was dreading and up until then I had been very down. Really crawling the walls at 4am. Then Calm, it got better the next day and has been better today. My dog died three days ago, I felt sad for a bit. I feel it did blunt the emotion quite a bit, I dont feel anything now. but on the day it happened it felt like a *real* emotion, not litteraly the end of the world and not a wonderful occurrance. I hope blunted emotion isnt that prevelent. We all must hate the big lows and big highs, but the mediums can sometimes feel good. I am realising the extent of my depression now, symptoms I hadnt even noticed are going. This sounds silly. but I hadnt noticed that for possibly 2 years I havent felt sexualy attracted to the strangers on the street and its strange- Like a dog on heat! I hadnt noticed It! over the years my libido stopped so much that I had forgotten what it was! There is other stuff but this is the wierdest and possibly most entertaining.
> So I will keep you all posted
> MNeat stuff, isn't it?
I know it well. This illness both plagues me and fascinates me.
I bet you have experienced an awaken of your taste buds. Colors? Smells? Clouds and sunsets to become awe inspiring sights to behold? Intelligence? Memory? Focus and concentration? A desire to experience and understand everything within reach and beyond imagination? The humanity in the appearance of true emotions? Bliss?
For me, the re-emergence of libido is one of the first aspects of depression to improve. It is amazing how little volition is necessary to have one's gaze linger upon curves and high cheek-bones.
- Scott
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