Posted by Anna Laura on June 10, 2001, at 4:10:48
In reply to Re: Help me if you can, I'm feeling down., posted by Autumn Despotis on June 9, 2001, at 2:54:35
> Dear Anna Laura,
>
> What an inspiring letter! What part of Europe are you from? My husband is from Cyprus, on the Greek side. We go there every year.
> I think I'm going to stay alive for now. Although, I have noticed my driving has become abnormally reckless within the past few days. It's like I'm inviting death, but death may have had another engagement to attend.
> I find it extremely difficult to discuss this with my husband, he doesn't seem to grasp the fact that you can't just tell a chemical imbalance to go away. It's a legitimate illness, but in his country they don't really acknowledge things like that. It's putting a strain on our marriage, and increasing my instability by the minute. I have an appointment with a new psychiatrist on July 10, but we're going to try to get in sooner. I can't go an entire month without some sort of mood stabilizer. But I don't trust the psych. I have been going to. I can't go back there, it would only make things worse.
> I am happy that you found your epiphany that day. It gives me hope. I don't hve much hope, I can always use more!
>
> love,
> AutumnFirst, i 'm not sure i should be posting this message on this board: i guess it ought to be redirected to Psycho-Social Babble....Anyway,
i 'm glad you appreciated my post, hope it helped a little bit. I understand what you mean
when you say your partner doesn't understand you. It was the same for me also.
After two years of strenuous, constant effort i got my partner to understand my mental condition. Not a long time ago he thought i could overcome the disease just with the "will power"and that i was kind of lazy. I was about to consider that also, thus lowering my self-esteem.
Concerning the depression issue, friends were the least understanding of all.
I remember clearly that a friend of mine told me that if i lived in a third world country, facing much bigger problems i wouldn't have been depressed. Those words really put me down 'cause i felt guilty and responsable for my situation. I felt like it was my fault not being able to control it.
I hope you'll get better: hold on!
I'm sure there are good and understanding pdoc out there; I guess you're going to find them easier and faster if you get to believe in human beings again. I think TRUST is the key.
I believe that trust can make wonders. (This is my personal opinion, due to my personal experience).
You asked me where i'm from: i'm italian, living in Northern Italy, near the French border.
(two hours drive from France).Love
Anna Laura
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