Posted by Lorraine on August 2, 2001, at 11:42:31
In reply to Hope you're okay on your 2nd day of parnate » Lorraine, posted by shelliR on August 1, 2001, at 21:29:38
[re: "the Magic Daughter]
> >I hope you like it; tell me what you think after you've read it.I ordered it from half.com. I'm not sure it is still in print, but at half.com you can get out of print or hard to locate books (like Tess Gallegher's "Moon Crossing Bridge"--which is a poetry book that she wrote shortly after the death her husband (or lover?)Ray Carver. When someone's husband dies, I like to give them this book because it is so lovely--but it is hard to find). I also ordered the PDR and got it for less than half price (which is still expensive, but look how much money I Saved). Anyway, I'll let you know what I think of The Magic Daughter after I have read it.
> > > I wouldn't go looking for new trauma unless you feel that there is something unresolved that is contributing to your depression.I suppose you are right. The thing about when I worked out my traumas before was that I didn't "remember" certain things and so had to "try on" various scenarios and walk around with them for a week or so to see if they "fit". For instance, when I set my pajamas on fire when I was eight, I don't know if there was a precipitating incident or a suicidal intent or if I was just a kid playing with matches that panicked. I "decided" the latter scenario was the truth. There also was some sexual abuse by my father when I was older. So I wonder here too although it's not something that I have a strong intuition about.
> > > Is your depression centered in a specific area of your body?I'm not sure. I feel a lot of heaviness in my chest. And I once worked with a massage therapist when I was during a wash out period and I think I cried the entire massage. She was wonderful and worked with me on breath (I was hyperventilating pretty badly at the time). I've had this happen before with other massage therapist who were emotionally oriented.
> > >I have stopped the estrogen, at least until I talk with her.
This sounds right and you are very lucky to have an ob/gyn you think highly of.
> > > How are you doing on day two of Parnate? With nardil, I had zero side effects from the beginning. Maybe others on the board can be helpful with knowing whether it took a while to adapt to parnate. You might ask, or first search the archives. I've never adjusted to any medication which gave me side effects at the beginning, but lots of people on the board have had the experience of it taking time to adjust to a med which turned out to be a success. I hope you're in that category. If not, there's always nardil.Yes, I should check other's reactions. I very frequently get the back ache thing from meds. I have read the archives--but didn't really see what I was looking for there. Maybe I'll do a general posting and see what people say.
> > > I do believe that I will either go back on nardil with concerta, or start parnate next week when the prozac is cleared out. I just took concerta (had already taken oxy a few hours ago) to see how I do on the two of them together. Today's the only day this week I can afford to lose so that's why I decided to do try it.Shelli, I'm glad to see that you are moving quickly on adjusting or changing your meds. Let me know how the concerta and oxy trial goes. The Parnate is having some positive effects--less aggitation than the selegiline and I suspect that the mood support is going to be more robust than stimulants or selegiline. We'll see.
> > > Actually, after yesterday's "seasickness" I am somewhat concerned that you haven't posted, and hope things are going better. Somehow though, I don't have a good intuition about your absence from the board today. I hope I'm wrong, and am looking forward to hearing.Thank-you for your concern. Things are better--although yesterday was rough because my 13 year old son lost his temper and started hitting me yesterday (he's 5'8" and strong) and telling me that he was going to kill me. It was very upsetting. First, it was hard to get "safe" because he wouldn't let me out of the room, then there was the issue of what to do to help him get control of his anger--trying to find a therapist and so forth. A real family crises. But I made it through and the family was able to talk it through last night and do some healing.
Shelli, so you know, I am one of those people who have "emergency" plans in place in case things get too tough. I have the book on suicide to read, the people to call, and at least one hospital that I could check myself in. I have never had to use my plan, but I have it in place because I believe that when things get rough sometimes it's easy to lose focus and I should just do step 1, then step 2 and so forth. I have also been blessed in that I don't have suicidal thoughts generally and have never attempted to harm myself.
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