Posted by anna on August 9, 2001, at 0:59:13
In reply to while we're getting honest :-) » akrake, posted by terra miller on August 8, 2001, at 20:21:18
> ....i downright have "2 year old fits" sometimes. i have 3 chips in my stove/range where i beat it with something (i have no idea what).....
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> i know this is scary now. i'm sorry that it's scary now.
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> wendy made a good point i forgot to mention. and this is that i have had and still have times when i just get so mad i can't think and my spouse is getting used to it/reading the signs... and i go into the bedroom and lock the door and don't come out until i am in a better frame of mind. sometimes that means an entire weekend. i'm not kidding. but if i'm just going to come out and scream at my family, it's best if i just stay away until i can deal with whatever i really need to deal with which is making me get angry. now, all that said it's not the wellbutrin that's "sent me to my room," but the application is still appropriate. you may just have to give yourself a "time out." :-) -terraBoy you took the words right out of my mouth terra. I had a "mommy" time out this past Sunday. Daddy and kiddos got home from church and I accidently spilled my drink and said "Sh*t" Well my DH told me to watch my language. That made me furious, I was already ashamed from my outburst in front of my girls (ages 3 and almost 5) so I went to my bedroom and meditated for 2 hours.
Parenting is hard for people who feel normal Amie, so try not to beat yourself up (this is where I need to take my own advice, lol)
O.K. I will lay myself out to you all here. I am also on wellbutrin and am stubborn, will not take my klonopin until it is too late (after an outburst is too late!!!) Well today I was trying to write out bills with no money, my 3 year old was whining/crying, my 1 year old boy who is usually easy is teething horribly, and my 5 year old was pissed because they would not shut up. Ya'll, I lost it, instead of taking a time out this time, I said (in a loud voice) "Will you all just be f*cking quiet so I can get these d*mn bills paid!!??!?!" I could not belive this was my own voice. I have never said the "F" word in front of the kids. I hardly say that word period!
You are not alone. My 5 year old then came up to my 3 year old and put her arms around her as if to protect her , looking at me like I was some foreigner. I felt like total and complete SHIT.
I then took my Klonopin. lol. I am not really laughing but from now on until I feel better I WILL take mine as it is prescribed (2 times a day)Hang in there, vent all you want, I feel better myself even though you all probably think I am awful!!! :)
Anna~
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