Posted by JahL on August 22, 2001, at 10:13:30
In reply to Re: VERDICT/depersonalisation. » JahL, posted by shelliR on August 22, 2001, at 1:09:38
>Have you tried any other "real" opiates?
Tried weak opium once. Felt sleepy but good! Never tried H; knew it would feel too good. If you've never tasted euthymia the next best thing is to get high. I used to drink to get high as opposed to drunk.
Absolutely no chance of getting opioids prescribed here for anything. Even when they'd opened up my hand to dig out & reattach a severed tendon (drink-related) I was refused (tho' I'm almost certain that a professional-looking gent with a similar injury was given different painkillers. Hmmm...). Have to go through unofficial channels.
> I wonder if my pdoc's strategy is to find something else that works for me, then get me off the oxycontin. I don't believe he's just gonna go higher and higher. Once he said he couldn't justify going any higher than he put me on originially, so I'm not sure what changed his mind. I truely think he's trying to keep me alive. I am also.He sounds like a good'un. A *compassionate* pdoc. Whatever next? :-)
> I have the kind of depression that is extremely painful, like it hurts so much that I don't think I can stand it--sort of like physical pain. Do you have any of that type of depression some of the time (makes you want to die immediately) or more a constant lack of pleasure/enjoyment type feeling?Both. I originally presented an anxious/dysthymic condition with inability to concentrate. However Effexor threw me into my first major depressive episode (still there) which is a different animal alltogether. Unmedicated it's as you describe; ball of (psychic) pain. I'm bed-ridden & obsessing about mainlining huge doses of H or just taking my head off. Medicated, as I am now, I have the constant, gnawing type of depression that *never* lets up. I'm completely mood-unreactive; no pleasure or excitement.
With enough pot on hand I can 'happily' stare @ walls all day. No less pleasurable than anything else.
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> > Something that may be of interest to you. I got in touch with this country's 1st specialist 'Depersonalisation Unit'.
> I do have a DD, but it's much less painful than the depression in the last year. Also valium helps me with the dissociation. If I'm really depressed I can't take it because valium can make me more depressed. But normally, it grounds me. Does valium have any effect on you? Have you compared it to klonopin?Benzos just make me a little sedated. Xanax helps a little if I'm particularly stressed.
> How did you get in touch with these people?Funnily enough I dx'd (correctly) a friend with Depersonalisation disorder. Him not being a lazy-arse depressive like me, he found them on the net. He e-mailed them & he's just received a load of questionnaires & suchlike. Ironically this is the very place I was referred to last year. Never got there because I fell out with my lazy-arse pdoc prior to my appt. I then forgot all about it.
> Are they going to meet with you?
Waiting for a reply. It's a govt. funded *rsch* programme so I think they're actually keen to recruit new 'bodies'. I'll let you know what comes of it. Had any of that Wellbutrin mood-lability thang? Seems to have passed for me.
J.
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