Posted by JahL on August 23, 2001, at 8:40:32
In reply to Re: medication for bipolar II » JahL, posted by SLS on August 23, 2001, at 6:57:01
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> In Re: Effexor
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> Hi JahL.
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> > E stopped working for me years ago but it was the first thing to give me a taste of what 'normal' felt like.
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> How much were you taking when it stopped working? Did you try increasing and augmenting it after you relapsed? Were there any environmental stressors that may have caused your medication breakthrough?Hi Scott. Right first time. These were my remarks. By E I actually meant 'Ecstasy' ('E' is a favoured UK term). I used to be a big-time self medicator, tho' I haven't done anything for a few years now. I can think of plenty of ways of augmenting E %^p.
For me E came before proper medical attn. Being a potent empathogen, it gave me a glimpse of what being human feels like. I'm like you; I never feel 'normal'.Re: Effexor. Despite going behind my pdoc's back & going to 425mg Effexor did nothing for me. Except bring on my first *major* depressive episode & generally wipe the floor with me. And I'm not talking withdrawal. I didn't get any of that which was fortunate since I *had* to get off the drug & fast. As well as the fogginess you describe elsewhere on this board I was becoming acutely suicidal (not helped by the fact that I *couldn't* fall asleep). I have a similar dx to you; unremitting BPII depression.
> > Had some good times...
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> I know the feeling. I try to cling tightly to those memories in order to have enough reason to continue suffering.Me too. Recapturing 'that' feeling (which I actually experienced briefly on Paxil/Prozac) has become my Holy Grail. It's all that matters.
Thanks for the befloxatane post elsewhere. Looks a bit technical so I'll read it when I've woken up.Ta,
J.
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