Posted by adamie on September 5, 2001, at 11:31:07
hi. i may be getting kicked out because my mom doesn't understand and is upset at me. she cant understand that i am unable to go school work in my current state. i feel like complete **** always. it has been getting much worse recently. i dont care about anything. if she kicks me out i'll tell her to drop dead and i'll never see her again. my life right now is over anyway. i need help. doctor at the hospital refused ECT. he doesn't realize how severe it's been for me. I need to save my life. I live in canada and i have th ohip card so ECT would be covered for free if the doctors approve.how does hospitalization work? i feel i may need to stay at a hospital to be safe. will they force meds on me or will i have the freedom of what goes in my mouth? some meds have me severely worse. effexor made me extremely suicidal. i dont want to deal with that. will they force me to take certain meds if i am at the hospital? i feel i really may need to go soon. i wish those bastards gave me adderall or something. i dont care if it causes addiction. i need to save my damn life. people smoke cigarettes which are far more dangerous. it makes me sick how i am treated. so i may be gone soon. maybe the doctors will later be convinced i need ECT as soon as possible. i'm crying very often, mind torture always, i feel as if i'm already almost dead.
poster:adamie
thread:77840
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