Posted by Katey on September 12, 2001, at 1:16:50
I am a young adult who has been depressed on and off for the past six years. I bounced on and off of zoloft for a year two years ago. I decided that i was never using zoloft again after i realized just how half alive it made me feel. i have been the the brink of suicide too many times to count in the past six years, and the space inbetween times seems to be growing smaller and smaller. i also began having 'breakdowns' about two years ago. these are times when i feel like crying, but cant cry, want to die, but cant make myself do it, and i end up thinking absolutely hiddeous thoughts concerning a lot of things. In the past year, i began, unintentionally, clawing at my arms during my breakdowns as a sort of release. The marks generally last about twenty to thirty minutes, but have lasted up to four hours. on an average day i can go from feeling like i'm flying to wanting to cry in less than a minute. this doesnt happen every day, there are days that feel normal, and entire days of highs and lows. i adamantly refuse SSRIs, and am taking orthotricyclin, which i know affects what drugs i can and can not take. any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you,
Katey
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