Posted by chloe on September 20, 2001, at 18:26:20
In reply to Re: Chloe, how are things going?, posted by Emme on September 19, 2001, at 21:31:27
Emme,
I had a horrible suicidal/dissociative crash for the third day in a row since stopping Zyprexa. I can't keep going like this. Relationships can't stand up to this kind of abuse. How many times can I say "I am sorry." I was so desperate today, I wanted to check in to a hospital. Something that hasn't been necessary in over a decade.When I called my pdoc, she insisted on Li, and not a small dose I had in my mind. 300 mgs lithobid ER to build up to 600. She told me that the ER version is a more consistant blood level of the med, and that I shouldn't get the harsh spike of med that can cause the awful tremor.
Right now, I am just so glad to have something that might keep me from diving into the depth daily. I have had a lot of disappointments with my family of late. And I just can't tolerate my experience. it's too painful for me to feel too much. I just splinter and get angry over nothing and dissociate and ruminate about my demise. I am so amazed I am able to write about my day. I thought it was my last. But I have popped back into reality for the evening...
Anyway, enoough about me, I have not heard much about Gabitril. When I heard it had activating properties, my mind closed on it. Activating=anxiety in my book. Could you tell me exactly what it is, and what your experience of it is?
You are so right, about how hard it is to try new meds, and keep your life and ducks in a row. It is so hard to hide mental illness. I know I am not keep up such a good front these days...But at least I know how Li affects me. It's almost like I know what to expect, so I am not so worried.
Please take care
Chloe
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