Posted by nightlight on December 3, 2001, at 8:14:05
In reply to Re: » nightlight, posted by tina on November 29, 2001, at 22:19:19
DEAR TINA,
Am not ignoring you. I DO know what you are suffering(the feeling of it any way) and I will write in more detail, later. No time lately-but I will get back to you, probably today.
Biggest change for me was diagnosis of ADD and adding a stimulant to my meds. If you read my responses to Glenn Fagelson, I do list my current meds.
Have a great day-I am going to WORK this a.m., couldn't have done that 2 months ago-so am making progress. I still find the supermarket terribly daunting! Crazy, huh?
We'll chat later. Thinking of you & wishing you well~nightlight
> . I woke up up each a.m. with a feeling of dread, fear, anxiety. Fairly subtle (not a panic attack or anything) and I wd. have to drag myself thru preparations for my day. Get clean, presentable, But I felt the same way when I was single. Try to get to work on time, try to stay alert enuf at work as to not appear to be the dulled/detached/inept/innervated person I felt like. Acting normal, performing as a real-life person felt (more than) a little overwhelming, even tho I always chose jobs that I figured wd. be fairly easy, so as not to put too much stress on myself-I could not handle too much responsibility, it freaked me out to think I might screw up and disappoint my boss, colleagues.
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> > But, the mixed state of fear/dread that I could not keep my end up, that all I wanted to do was go home, NOW, be safe, take a nap, rest, tend to a nagging chronic pain problem (which was intermittent, not daily) always seemed looming over my head during the daytime.
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> this is amazing nightlight. To see myself in your description of yourself. Acting normal, performing as a real-life person--being overwhelming......it's just amazing. Just wanting to go home, NOW, crawl into bed, be safe, the whole world is scary and I don't want to be in it anymore, I just want to go home or I'm going to fall into a heap and unconsolably weep feeling. I've never seen it written so exactly in every way. What meds are you on , if you don't mind? I keep getting told that feeling this way isn't real but I know it must be. Thank you for posting this.
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