Posted by nightlight on January 19, 2002, at 12:27:08
In reply to Re: The Price of Adrafinil » manowar, posted by IsoM on January 18, 2002, at 17:03:33
> Actually, the chart I drew up was in Word & I used a proper table, but had to change it about to fit this forum.
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> If I could be mentally stimulated all the time by other's input & ideas, stims wouldn't be necessary for that part. But I can't have people following me about helping (or I would just be bursting with ideas but never get any work done - I've always wanted a job where I could be in some sort of "think tank". My ideas aren't manic either, but very well-grounded & practical. Others say I'm very practical yet creative.Hi Iso~
Always find ur posts interesting & informative! So glad u are here. (How did u happen upon this forum, by the way?)
Another question: did I read somewhere that you felt you might have some underlying narcoleptic features in ur profile?
I was finally dx'd with ADD recently. I've been struggling with how to cope with 'life', be normal, fight depression and confusion for decades.
I have also been consistently 'sleepy', bored, easily fatigued 'mentally' throughout my highschool yrs. and beyond. I always felt like if I cd. just get enuf sleep, or the perfect 2-hr. nap, my fuzzy head wd. clear, & I'd be OK--(NOT!)
I can sleep 12-16 hours a day, no problem (well, it's really a terrible problem). I have always been a vivid dreamer, talk, laugh and carry on (even sing) while sleeping (even w/no drugs in my system). I've also carried on conversations w/friends/family (while in person or on the phone) and done my fair share of sleepwalking.
I am now, finally, seeing a therapist and a shrink, both of whom I like. After 10 weeks, I am currently taking 60mgs. Adderall a.m. and 60mgs. after lunch. I am slowly titrating up on Effexor. Will start 112.5 today. Only discomfort from EFF. is a little nausea, so I have a bedtime snack w/milk and take my birth control and EFF. at that time.
Your comments on Adrafinil as opposed to reg. pstims is intriguing. The past 2 years have been sheer hell, and my untreated (A_D's didn't work) depression + caring for an ill parent and a young child, have left me with SO MUCH to address and rectify, that, even tho I am much improved, I still am having a lot of trouble prioritizing and initiating/finishing tasks.
But, at least, my major depression of late summer, early fall has diminished greatly, and, with the help of the Adderall, I can get out of bed, stay clean, wash my hair and look presentable, work a little part-time, and believe there may be hope for me and my family's future.
> My resumé includes "innovative ideas & practical solutions".)
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> But then I really do need something to keep awake. And memory improvement & focus are sure nice to have.
Great presentation of your strengths in your resume.I want to 'really' work again, but it is reall y gonna take a while for me to get organized. We are supposed to be moving out of Mom's house this week (she passed away last spring) aand I am just a bit intimidated, to make a serious understatement). Both of my organized siblings live out of state, and are at the breaking point when it comes to us vacating this abode, so it can be sold. I have been quite ill over the past few months and accomplished little. (I was doing well to keep my kid clean, fed and cared for). But beyond that, I finally succumbed to the depression (which I've had for years), physical ills, & grief (from 2 perfectly womderful parents dying within 14 months & sleeping in a recliner for a year watching my sweet mother succumb to Alzheimer's, dementia and death-it was actually not as prolonged as it might have been, and I really feel blessed to have been able to care for her. I got to know her better than I ever had, the dementia lowered her usual emotional/personal restraint, And I was holding her hand when she passed. I would have been thrust into an even worse dep., I think, if I had not been able to be there for her.I am aware that my Adderall dose is high (by PDR standards), but I tolerate it well, and it does not cause appetite suppression or insomnia. Like you on dexedrine, I can nap (still need those naps to feel 'human' in the evenings!)and usually must, due to extremely low 'mental'vigor. I am hoping the Eff. might be effective. There's probably no way a person cd. rely on stims alone for consistent, long-term depression relief.
And, I think, I am just now beginning to feel very slightly, subtly happier (wow!) with the EFF., not ruminating quite so much on death and loss. Those *happy* moments are brief, but so welcome.nightlight
ps-are you in the states? Are the short, dark days wearing on you? My 5 yr-old and I have so little 'yard time' during the week-I am so glad the days are 'on the wax', even tho it's a little difficult to tell yet. At least I'm in the deep south, near the gulf coast, and the temps aren't too miserable-but as I age,(I'll be 46 in 2 mos.) I find far more hope and comfort in the sunshine.
I love raking, pruning, mowing, digging in the dirt-it's my only real exercise and, done somewhat moderately, helps the aches & pains of fibro, mps & herniated discs, not to mention that I am the least depressed when outside talking to squirrels & trees, rather than people! (When I was younger, I preferred the dark moodiness of the clouds and rain-good for reading & sleeping).
> Anyway, I ordered a bunch of adrafinil that just came in today. It's for a few others who have similar problems to me that want to try it too. I noticed the price on the package - the equivalent Canadian to $9.71 per package (40 tabs). And with shipping & handling, I pay $37.00 per package! One friend that just picked it up said he's got a cousin in France, so we're going to go through her instead. What a savings that will make. Now I won't go broke just to stay awake!
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> I'm really glad to hear it works as well for you as it does for me. I do wonder though why some people notice an immediate reaction to it & why it then poops out. I wonder if a longer trial at a lower dose would help them?
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