Posted by Chrissy on March 15, 2002, at 8:42:03
In reply to Re: Topamax Experiences NEW POST, posted by jojomander on February 26, 2002, at 10:59:21
This is wierd, I posted a follow up message to your's quite a while ago, and it never showed up. well let's try again! I am glad to have found someone who is also on the Topamax-Prozac combo.
Honestly for me I'm not sure the two are going to work together. Together they seem to cause me anxiey about mid-day. (guilty sick feeling in my chest for no reason, pacing, anxious feeling inside) I do however LOVE what each medicine does for me by themselves!
TOPAMAX-No OUT OF CONTROL anger episodes. When I get angry (example, your spouse dose something they know will anger you, whether it be right or wrong...In your bipolar mind the EMOTIONS RUSH IN FIRST! Anger! you physically shake etc.) With Topamax I'm clear headed about it, and it makes sense and doesn't just go straight to hurting me and making me feel overwhelmed with emotion.
NO WEIGHT GAIN SIDE EFFECTS! Lost at least 10 pounds in 2 months. maybe more. I'm used to gaining this much by now with a new medicine.
ALCOHOL-Personally alcohol has always been in my life, for fun, and I know before meds, for mood elevation, to get me out of the constant dull nothingness. After meds, and learning of Bipolar, stil kinda hard to break the habit, of social drinking, which is drinking to get drunk. why else drink? On Topamax, I don't drink. I turn it down, I don't want it, not only am I numb to anger spurts I'm numb to alcohol spurts or "binge drinking" The few times I have drank on Topamax, I don't drink to black out point, I feel more control, I'm more aware, maybe cause I'm not looking to down the next shot. I don't know. Maybe because I'm thinking more clearly of how those nasty medication/alcohol hangovers are!
PROZAC-always worked best for depression with no side effects, (meaning weight gain)Besides all of the above I'm on my 3rd month of the Top./proz/ combo.
For the last 2 weeks I've been at an all time low.
The last few days have been the worst. I hate how I feel. I'm depressed, but not, cause I feel numb, I feel incredibly lost, I'm crying, I just want to sleep, not because I'm tired but because I don't want to feel this way. I want it to pass.(NOT suicidal!)
I feel no one REALLY understands or cares in my family. Had a wonderful energized day yesteray morning, got things done, enjoyed the sun, then about mid-day I dropped for no reason. Writing this helps. Chrissy
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