Posted by Reneeb on March 18, 2002, at 20:16:20
In reply to Re: where there is sorrow there is holy ground, posted by Shanti on March 18, 2002, at 18:33:11
> i agree with you jannbeau about the great diversity of emotions, i am just coming into that (this is usually my depression time) but with these posts, my husband and i communicating (amazingly while he is unemployed right now update- just got a job today!) and most importantly me allowing my self to feel a little anger, fustration the other day but not losing site completely and in the moment of the emotion i told my self it was ok to have but also integrate "love" with it - this is very complex to explain i actually never thought i would understand it but i finally do (as for finally - i obviously wasn't ready before and i am now) and this is also my way of integrating my depression into my life ( i truly believe i will have it forever but just to different degrees and also how i chose to utilize it instead of looking at it with fear and then making it worse.
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> i love your last quote. and no i don't think of it as a sign of mental illness i actually think of it as a sign of being closer to god for me because i find my thinking (through the use of drugs/alcohol as well) that i am always drawn to the spirits so i take this as an opportunity to learn. people who know me find me to be a "bit off center" that used to make me very sad (low self esteem) but funny thing is these are the very people that will seek me out when facing life's difficulties.
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> going back to your quote if i'm not mistaken didn't jesus suffer and he was/is the ultimate of holy!
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> peace
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> shanti
Shanti, I stopped breathing for a second when I read what you wrote "but funny thing is these are the very people that will seek me out when facing life's difficulties. Boy, can I relate to that.
Renee
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