Posted by JohnX2 on March 27, 2002, at 1:45:01
In reply to JOHNX2: all the best 2 U, more: » JohnX2, posted by Janelle on March 27, 2002, at 0:55:40
> John, You're fortunate that 1) your company's medical insurance provider is covering you and 2) that you have an employer who apparently understands this kind of illness and allowed you to take a medical leave because of it. (that you're on leave also explains why you're up late posting on here, even if you live in the western US, it's getting late!)
>My work situation is not good. Getting the medical leave was a coupe. The insurance provider is jerking me around (I'm still dealing with them). I live in TX. Lately I have been keeping a very late schedule. I make yours look quite whimpy!
> You mentioned that you took the leave because you became "very manic" (in January) -- could you describe some of the symptoms/behaviors you were exhibiting that brought you to the point of having to take a leave from work?
>I was rediagnosed Bipolar I in January by my pdoc. This is the more sever mania type. It was very debilitating and dangerous. I listed my symptoms for someone in a link. It dissipated over Jan/early Feb. I mostly have BP II type symptoms now. I'd describe them more in detail later.
These were my Jan symptoms:
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20020131/msgs/92857.html> I ask because there is uncertainty between my pdoc and a therapist about whether or not I have BPII - I know that I cycle, but it's back and forth from depression with anxiety to feeling good/okay (NOT manic, from what I understand about that condition). So, I'm quite interested in what kinds of behaviors you were exhibiting that were "manic" (and that apparently interfered with your job performance to the point of your taking a leave). Thanks very much.
Well Janelle, there is euphoric hypomania and agitated or dysphoric hypomania. The euphoric kind is when you feel good. This is not common for me. I have experienced this twice.
The last time was after a major depressive episode when I was 14. I pinged into a euphoric hypomanic state. I actually became much more extroverted as a result too. I was very shy and introverted as a child. This major cycle of depression/hypomania dissipated after a few years.
I guess since then I was a more mild BPII according to my pdoc.3 yrs ago (I'm 29) I slipped back into major depression, as I came out of this I again experienced some euphoric hypomania. Sometimes this was really wild. But in those intermittent 13 yrs it was mostly this mild mixed / dysphoric / agitated hypomania. This hypomania is generally less easily diagnosed (as you don't feel the euphoria).
With mixed/agitated/dysphoric hypomania I may feel very agitated, unable to sit still, depressed yet have racing thoughts, easily angered, confrontational, etc. Mood cycles easily.
The ADs poop out or make me cycle on-off.
Sorry I can't go into more on this blurb, I'm a bit tired.
Regards,
John
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