Posted by Angel Girl on March 24, 2002, at 17:29:37
In reply to Re: Anyone had success on Effexor XR? , posted by Rrissa1317 on March 24, 2002, at 12:25:53
> I have 2 children still at home, ages 5 and 11. It upsets them to see me cry for no reason. I tell them I didn't know why I was crying, that I like the song. It only confused them further. If it were only me, I wouldn't care what the rest of the world thought of the way I acted or when I cried. But my children are everything to me. I want them to have a semi "normal" mother. So far I haven't been able to give that to them. I see the effects of my depression in the way they act and re-act. That is what bothers me the most. Until I had children, I had never tried AD's. I am who I am (then). If you couldn't deal, there's the door. I had no friends and preferred it that way. Still do. But docs and society tell me that is unhealthy, not normal. I would build my nest and stay there if it were up to me. But it's not. My husband has said that it I don't "get over this and get out and live" it will be the end of us. sorry...didn't mean to spill. I'll stop there.
Rrissa
I wish I could have the same attitude as you about people. <quote> I am who I am. If you couldn't deal there's the door <end quote>. That's part of my problem right now. The ONLY friends I do have are internet friends. And right now, after having serious suicide thoughts a little over a week ago and leaving one of them a goodbye email, some of my friends are not 'dealing' too well. One of them won't even speak to me until I am showing that I am 'serious' about getting well and can prove that to her. Not sure how she thinks she will know if she doesn't talk to me. I too, would stay home and never go out if it were left up to me and money was not an issue. I life alone and I took a leave of absense from work due to my depression and did nothing but lay on the couch and watch tv for months or spend time on the computer. I was very content doing that but unfortunately reality set in and the almighty dollar was calling my name. :(
I'm sorry you are not getting the support you need from your husband. <hugs> Don't worry about 'spilling'. You can talk all you need to. I hate to see people hurting. <hugs> to you.
Angel Girl
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