Posted by JohnX2 on April 2, 2002, at 16:52:58
In reply to I'm ''back'' and explanation re my illness/meds, posted by Janelle on April 2, 2002, at 15:39:39
> Because I've become "addicted" to this site, and also thanks to the encouragement and support of some kind souls (you know who you are), I'm "back" and would like to take this opportunity to explain something about my d@mn illness and the meds and how these relate to the questions I've been asking, (which I still feel leery to ask any more of) -- basically, my condition and perhaps the meds, but from past experience, I think it is the illness, has severely limited my cognitive functioning ... to the point where when it comes to reading I cannot concentrate on anything very long or detailed. I can't even read magazines or light fiction books without racing thoughts creeping in and forcing me to read the same passage over and over again. Also and primarily, with the high level of anxiety I have, I get a feeling of being overwhelmed by so much reading material that my head starts to swim, the anxiety builds and feeds on itself and I can't focus. Watching television is also a chore - I can't concentrate very long, I *zone out* and miss chunks of dialog then can't figure out what just happened.
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> What I'm trying to illustrate with these is examples is that when it comes to doing RESEARCH on topics like those I've put into questions on here, I just can't sift and sort through copious amounts of reading material such as that found in response to an Internet Search.
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> Also, I'm homebound so I can't even get out to a library or bookstore to do research there. T'wouldn't matter anyway, because as I said above, I'm unable to deal with a large amount of detailed reading material.
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> By posing the questions on here, I was hoping to get concise, to-the-point, SHORT/BRIEF answers that I could manage to read through without feeling overwhelmed and having my head spin to the point where I couldn't focus or concentrate. And it worked - I could handle the answers I was getting on here and was able to ask follow-up questions if I didn't understand something.
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> I hope this explains things!Hi Janelle,
I'm glad you are back! I hope you don't feel an overwhelwhelming need to defend yourself. I know darn well what it is like to have thoughts racing so fast it is difficult to remember what was happening a few moments ago.
In fact I was hypomanic/agitated for a number of days and I was thinking and typing so fast that I couldn't remember what thought I had on a sentence before I finished typing a sentence for a number of weeks!
Have you started up the Depakote? That should help with the racing thoughts.
Best Wishes,
John
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