Posted by n0matter on May 1, 2002, at 13:07:57
All because of what what seemed at the time to be a barely post-adolescent nervous breakdown. My initial prescription consisted of 1mg Ativan, 3x/day. Over the past 7 years, this script has somehow manifested itself into .5mg Klonopin, 2x/day, supplemented with 10mg paxil before bed. I believe I was improperly treated for my breakdown all those many years ago and now, after experimenting with dozens of SSRI/klonopin cocktails, I believe I've pretty much lost touch with what is a "normal" lifestyle and general thought methodology. I hate the fact that I need pills to maintain my sanity. And this revelation is constantly renewed when, say, I forget to bring my prescription on a weekend outing and ultimately spend most of it attemting to hide the crippling withdrawals. Is it unreasonable to just give up at this point and accept the fact that I'll never again lead a life without medication? I'm not looking for sympathy. Just maybe an empathetic response from others in my situation who have basically already made the choice to submit to their affliction.
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