Posted by Analine on May 14, 2002, at 1:30:21
Hi all, I come here a lot to read the posts but hardly post myself because I'm really shy. I hope you all don't mind if I have a bit of a sook, I'm just feeling so down.
I went off Effexor about 2 months ago because even thought it was making me happy :) I had gained 15 kg (dunno how many pounds that is sorry), and had NO libido to speak of. It can be so hard to live like this even if you feel happy. It was so hard coming off, what with all the withdrawals, and I vowed that even if I did get depressed again I wouldn't go back on it I'd try something different.
I should have known, since then I've been getting the familiar thoughts and feelings I got before of just HATING myself. I don't feel depressed as such, more sad but I hate myself and think I'm a worthless waste of space and a loser. I don't know if that counts as depression or if it warrants some more AD's or not???
I went to my new GP (I don't have a psychiatrist) and he hardly even listened to me :'(. I told him I was thinking of trying AD's again and I suggested Prozac because it worked for my mum, or maybe Zoloft. He didn't even ask how I was feeling...strange...but said that most AD's have side effects (which I already knew) and that I may as well go back on Effexor.
I'm so sad and don't know if I should go back on the Effexor or nothing at all. What if I'm not even depressed? Maybe I'm just crazy and want attention or want to feel special or whatever?
Sorry for this HUGE post, I'm just so frustrated and needed to get it all out.
:'( Thanks for listening.
xxx
poster:Analine
thread:106275
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20020510/msgs/106275.html