Posted by gare on May 15, 2002, at 6:35:52
In reply to Re: Please help! » gare, posted by Sherrie on May 14, 2002, at 20:55:03
hi sherri:
sometimes when things don't work as fast as we want to, we end up impatient and begin taking other things. the same is true in how the world works: people don't put up with stuff in relationships because it isn't as rosey as thought possible, people switch jobs because they are not making enough money fast enough, and well same thing goes for losing weight, having or not having orgasms, etc.
as far as having chronic depression, i've been dealing with it since i was a teenager, being in a family of six, where i was the youngest and the one abused mentally, physically, and sexually by many of the members in the family, including my mother, who was an alcoholic.
i have tried to commit suicide when i was 12 and then again at 16.
i became an alcoholic at 17 until i was 19, which i had abnormal liver functions in my blood.
i became hiv positive when i was 19, which is also how i found out about my liver.
i thought i was going to die when i was 21 and didn't want to finish college. i couldn't tell
anyone in my family and i had basically no support.things didn't get much better from then on.
but i am now 31 going on 32 this summer and i think that i am fed up with begin chronically depressed, having doctors tell me that i am going to die if i don't take hiv medication that causes me more side effects that effexor ever will, and i have to work to support myself as i don't have rich family or friends.
i live alone with a cat.
i went on to get a degree in psychology with a minor in accounting.
i am now a meeting planner and a certified massage therapist that volunteers at the local aids organization.
i finally found someone who could accept me for who i was, with baggage and all, and he's not hiv positive.
i have been on other antidepressants before: imipramine and prozac back in the early 90's.
aren't you tired of being chronically depressed?
i am.
i think there is more to life than how i react to some external situation. i think there is more to life than making money, trying to make others happy when i need to make myself happy - it's great that i am at my happiest though when i do please and serve others - and i do want to believe that i will live on for a long time - not what scientific fact has limited my lifespan to a 15 years - that would mean i have only 2 years left to live.
i don't think so.
so please becareful what you write when you don't really know who you are writing to or about.
i know it's hard to fight depression among other things that everyone else has in their life.
i hope you are not upset as i didn't mean to cause anyone to be upset over my own experience and outlook.
as it is said, dreams do come true. believe and it shall be. ask God and you shall receive..stuff like that...so if you want to succeed, you will.
maybe your success isn't limited to effexor, so keep trying. i didn't write that statement as a 100% factoid for everyone and if effexor isn't working for you, then you have failed.
the secret is in keep trying and you will find what works for you and don't be discouraged about setbacks as they will occur.
gare
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