Posted by MomO3 on May 16, 2002, at 22:01:13
In reply to Need OCD info and experiences, posted by BarbaraCat on May 16, 2002, at 14:42:06
My OCD presents itself in my yard. For the last 2 years I have been working to create the perfect playyard for my children... I think as far as their concerned it IS perfect... but not for me...
Last year we had 8 yards of dirt delivered and a truck full of sod, I spent 2 days laying sod while my husband watched the children.
Now that it's 'finished' - when I take my children out side to play - am I pushing them in the swings? no... am I playing with them in the gravel? no.. am I helping them on the slide?... again no...
so what am I doing? Well there are weeds in my yard, I walk out there and it's the only thing I can see, weeds everywhere - oh and it's not perfectly level like a golf course - so I am going around with a hand shovel and sprinkling sand trying to make everything level, and pulling every weed I see by hand...
It's obsessive - i can't see anything but the defects in my yard mainly weeds, weeds, weeds - I can't sit back and enjoy all of the hard work I have put into it - unless I look at the sky ( I can't fix anything up there).
It's compulsive - while pushing 3 children on the swings I will spot a weed that I just can't stand to look at anymore and I just HAVE to walk away from my children to go pull that one weed... well once I get there, there is always another one and another one, etc...
my poor children are left sitting in the swings wondering why mommy is more concerned about the grass than them...!!
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