Posted by AlphaOne on June 4, 2002, at 14:04:53
In reply to Re: Scared, but hopeful- I was just diagnosed with ADD, posted by katekite on June 4, 2002, at 13:13:47
> I'm 30. I'm not sure how things are going to turn out. I hope that ritalin alone will eventually work, but still I find myself trapped in mental habits that are hard to kick -- doubting that I will succeed, doubting that I will ever fall asleep, the feeling of waiting for something to happen to me rather than being in charge, wondering if any one career will ever be satisfying for the period of time expected by this society (and me, now that I seem to have well internalized everyone else's goals).
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> I'm learning to cope and have a lot of hope with the ADD diagnosis. Ritalin is wonderful. I am better at basketball, even at walking, can organize my day in the morning, get less upset at frustrating activities. I can now not read a book in one sitting or never: I can put it down.
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> I want that initiative, that incomparable fanaticism about a new project, to swallow me up again and drive me. It slowly seems to be creeping back... though its strange with ritalin to finish things when I thought I might just flail. It is still all too easy to give up. I'm working hard to get better at congratulating myself for the things I do accomplish, and to take on realistic projects.
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> I also worry about whether learning to take on realistic projects is good? My faint urge to build and fly an ultralight? Will I never do anything about it? What will that mean for me and the world?
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> About every other day I wonder about trying some other additional drug. I don't know how long I should work with ritalin alone. I wonder if an anti-depressant plus ritalin would get me more productive, then I could get used to that feeling again and drop the anti-depressant.
Try Reboxetine, that gave me more drive.
However I think you may be expecting to much.
When I took Ritalin, I found I could do any task, and finish it, if I sat down and did it.
Ritalin however didn´t force me to do anything.
I still had to motivate myself.
The difference was that it gave me an option. It basically gave me free will.
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