Posted by Chloe on June 27, 2002, at 19:26:04
Generally speaking I feel OK to a little depressed most of the time. Then every three weeks, I start feeling so great and ambitious. And I don't think it's linked to periods, as I am taking the BCP continuously which has stop my periods (and pms).
This go around, I was going to go back to school, start another career, cancel therapy sessions, go on an extended vacation, get involved with local organizations, etc. Then when I realize I can't do it all, I get into this agitated fury where I am screaming frofanities and hate words to the people I love and need. Also, during these agitated times, that last about 36-48 hours, I am highly suicidal, raging and beyond reason(and I often don't remember much of these episodes, or I have terrible remorse). AND I can't take AP's because I have TD from taking mellaril for years and years.
Does anyone have any thoughts on taking extra Depakote or lithium just during these times? Or is the fact that I am cycling at all a sign that I am not on enough mood stabilizer? I am quite petite, and get hit very hard with side effects, so my pdoc has me on many meds at low doses to avoid painful side effects. However, during the times I am not foaming and screaming, I am quite reasonable and rational.
FYI, I take
250 mgs depakote
225 mgs Li ER
600 mgs Neurontin
10 mgs diazapam
1.4 mgs Celexa
25 mgs Doxepin (for lithium induced scalp pain)Thanks
Chloe
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