Posted by McPac on July 18, 2002, at 17:32:18
In reply to Re: Mood stabilizers, posted by Angel Girl on July 18, 2002, at 14:16:03
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> First off I want to preface this by expressing anger at myself for posting a long reply to you and not confirming the damn thing and now I have to start all over. I HATE when I do that, and in the current mood I'm in, it certainly does NOT help. Sorry, just needed to vent my frustration, which is NOT directed at you.
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> Somehow, I know this reply is going to pale in comparison to the one I lost. :(
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> So what you are saying is that mood stabilizers prolong your moods???? I don't see the point in that. I was hoping that they would even my moods out so that I control them more. My current mood started with getting some more bad news from the health system that seems to want to let me fall through the cracks once again. In a 10 minute phone call I went from having an extremely rare good mood (not manic) to being angry. Now, I am continually subjecting everybody that comes anywhere near me to all that my anger entails and I KNOW that this is not helping my relationship problems but yet I continue. It's like I have no control. I'm not satisfied until I destroy everything in my life. I know I'm doing it, but yet I continue.
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> I was thinking of taking either Lamitical or Topomax. My doctors are urging me to take Lithium but I'm fighting that with all I've got. I don't want to go anywhere near that drug. They're urging me to keep an open mind. The more I read about it, the more I hate. What mood stabilizer are you on?
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> Isn't there something that can be taken to even out my moods so that I don't inflict all the innocent people who have the misfortune to talking with me to all this anger I am engrossed with right now???
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> Because of some upseting news, it's having a domino effect on everything and all I want to do is cry and bite everybody's heads off. I know I'm doing it but it's like somebody else has taken over control of my mind and body and I can't seem to stop. Then of course, once I create all the damage from this mood, I will be extremely upset to what I've done and angry at myself and so the viscious cycle will continue.
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> Isn't there a way out of this living nightmare???
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> Somebody please help me. I need some advice before I destroy everything that means everything to me.
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> Does ANYBODY understand what I'm talking about or am I completely insane and beyond help.
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> Angel Girl>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>AngelGirl, please e-mail me @ Imupacrk1029@msn.com Lithium DOES sound like it would be a great choice for you. I will explain more to you after you e-mail me!
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