Posted by johnlund on September 17, 2002, at 22:15:19
In reply to Maybe I Overstated my case, posted by Mr.Scott on September 17, 2002, at 19:53:31
For me the meaning in life is to win over depression. If at the end of my life, I haven't died by my own hand, and I have managed to love my family and friends, and have been considered by others to be a worthwhile person to know, then I consider my life to have meaning. I will have beaten the genetics that put all the bad chemistry in my brain.
However, I know I would have lost the battle if it were not for ADs. I wish I could have said I would have won on my own, but that would be a lie. I tried for many years on my own, and the depression only got worse. To the point were I was at the end of my rope. ADs were the helping hand I needed to give me a second chance at beating the depression. It is like I was pushing a big load up a hill, and I couldn't make it up the hill pushing the load only with my own strength, but I almost could. All I needed was a little help to add the force that I was exerting already, and am still exerting. It is not like I had to stop pushing, I just needed a little help so the load would not over power me and run me over when I gave up pushing.
Anyway, that is what the meaning of life is for me - to win the battle in my own brain.John
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