Posted by sienna on September 27, 2002, at 20:55:51
In reply to The right time to go is when you ask that question (nm) » sienna, posted by Phil on September 27, 2002, at 19:46:03
But I feel better than I did before, I just dont know how bad is bad enough. I think I should have gone last time. I still dont feel right. Im afraid it's going to get that bad again. I'm unable to work and Im afraid of what will happen when my disability runs out. Its expensive to live here in California. Just thinking about this stuff really makes me panicky. Im not suicidal, right now, but I still am having some thoughts that way. I was goign to buy a gun, but i couldnt find my ID, then now I found it and stared at it in disbelief because I knew that meant it was that easy.
Really scary. Sorry to be so depressing, it's just hard right now and my mood is different every day.
Sienna
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