Posted by wcfrench on October 9, 2002, at 1:57:30
In reply to Re: Any artists, musicians out there on meds?, posted by Gracie2 on October 9, 2002, at 0:13:19
I played trumpet and piano in college, until I recently graduated. I sing and play guitar also, but for my own "rock star" purposes. When I started taking Geodon and it kicked in, I could "feel" the music-- it was the wierdest thing. I had never felt it that strongly before. I think it was the dopamine action.. but I had a nasty bout with that med and stopped taking it, and haven't felt the music on that magnitude since. When I took Paxil, I did develop a pretty close connection with Counting Crows music, the emotion just seemed to flow into good feelings. Now I'm flat, on Remeron, and switching off to Zoloft in effort to get some feelings again.
I've never dropped acid, but I suspect that I'm missing out on something. Yes, on the Geodon, colors did also seem more appealing and Buddhism struck a major chord with my- since I was also in a Buddhism class at the time. I felt a great spiritual connection, but I realize that I may have just been experiencing bouts of grandeur- but it was awesome.
The music was amazing, and I'd give anything to feel music like that all the time. And I was writing lyrics, songs, personal writings, and they became very dear to me. I started drawing art that looked similar to John Lennon's. It was like I found out how other people lived and how someone's "notebook" of writing became so dear to them and so important. It was amazing, but I don't really feel it anymore. Hopefully the motivation and emotion will come back. I think it will, eventually.
That was the best I've ever felt in my life.
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