Posted by ayrity on October 9, 2002, at 23:33:44
Met with my doc today- we looked back in my chart and I can't believe I started Parnate over 3 months ago! A good try, don't you think? But I keep getting these damned spikes in my BP after taking a dose of med, not related to food. We both hoped the BP problem would get better with time, but it hasn't and we decided today that the risks are too high for the marginal benefit I've had and that it's time to stop.
I had such a miserable summer (work related, among other things) and 3 months have just gone down the drain with nothing to show for it. I had such high hopes for Parnate, having failed multiple other meds. I feel like such a freakin' zombie- I eat, sleep, work, a few hobbies but no social life- that's it. I'm tired of living without having a life, if that makes sense. It reminds me of lines from Emily Dickinson: "The Feet, mechanical, go round-/ Of Ground, or Air, or Ought-/ A wooden way/ Regardless grown,/ A Quartz contentment, like a stone-"
Well, I'm tapering off 70 mg Parnate- should be off in about a week or so. Then a week or two of washout and we might try Nardil. But I've had the worst of the side effects from every other med so far (should I list them? Ok- Celexa, Celexa + Wellbutrin, Wellbutrin alone, Effexor, Effexor + Provigil, Moclobemide, hmmmm... I'm probably forgeting one or two others). The sexual side effects of Nardil scare me- had that on the SSRIs and hated it (though I don't exactly have a love life right now, but, being a guy, well, you know...)
Anyway, sorry for the wallowing, just felt like venting. Wish me luck.
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