Posted by fuzzymind on December 13, 2002, at 1:59:50
In reply to Extreme Anger...anyone with sim feelings?..Please., posted by jay on December 12, 2002, at 21:07:18
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> Right now..I am just on Risperdal. I am miserable, angry, and absolutely hate anybody who causes me *any* problems. This can be anybody..from my Mom to anybody on the street.
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> My temper is just ready to crack..and antidepressants and 'mood stabalizers' don't bring much relief...and can often make things *worse*.
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> Is it possible for someone to be in such a state of depressed anxious psychosis that *everything* makes me miserable? Geezzus...I just want some relief..please! Any special med combo or such? I've been grinding at this for 10 years. I just want to yell, cry, scream. This isn't just a few months or a couple of years..it is a decade!! If there is no hope...why even bother with carrying on...it's just pain. Any help...please.
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> Thank you,
> JayI have been very angry , defensive and irritable for going on 2 decades. Getting a cat 3 years ago has calmed me down a bit, but I am still enraged when someone disagrees with me ,and I relive events, vividly, over and over again with peole who not bullied me and used me as an emotional punching bag, but with people who simply disagreed with me, or strangers who I had encounters with. I am very insecure, have bare minimal self-esteem, and suicidal. SO much self-hatred, hatred of my parents who still deny I was suicidal or depressed in HS ieven though I attempted suicide on more thatn one occasion!!! YOu aren't alone , but I don't have any solutions.
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