Posted by bluedog on December 14, 2002, at 12:53:02
In reply to bluedog, posted by cubbybear on December 14, 2002, at 9:24:47
Hi Cubbybear
I'm still around. I'm sorry that I haven't kept in contact recently but I am currently going through a pretty intense period of anxiety that seems to be building up with every passing day.
I'm actually returning to work on Monday the 16th of December (In other words I've only got one more day to go) after a 4 month extended sick leave period since I was struck down by my last episode of major depression. As the return date gets nearer and nearer I'm starting to panic as I am worried about the inevitable questions that will come fom my colleagues asking why I've been off sick for such an extended period. I'm also worried whether the stress of the job will cause me to relapse back into my depression.
I'm still undecided whether to tell my colleagues the truth about my depression or whether to lie and say that I've had glandular fever or something like this. I've also been diagnosed with chronic fatigue but again people don't have much understanding of this condition and may form opinions that with chronic fatigue and depression that I've really just been lazy and view me as some kind of malingerer.
I saw my Pdoc on Friday for some last minute medication advice and to help me through the initial anxiety upon my return he has upped my Diazepam doseages to 5mg 3x daily to hopefully give my mind a bit of a break and to prevent any relapse into my chronic social anxiety and depression from any excessive job stress.
Anyway, to get back to your original question in our previous thread, I'd LOVE to have discussions with you on the subject of spirituality and related matters. I think that because this is the med board that we should have this dialogue on the social board instead. Maybe you can start things off with a post that summarises your basic philosophy on spirituality? I am extremely interested in the relationship between your spirituality and your move to Thailand. I also have a million other questions to ask and I know this discussion will lead down many interesting paths:) :) :).
I will keep a look out for your posts on the Social Board. However because I am going back to work on Monday and tomorrow I will be spending most of the day preparing for my return (ironing shirts, polishing shoes etc etc) do not be concerned if I am not responding to your posts immediately and depending on how tired I am it may take me a couple of days to get back to your posts(I have a job that is extremely emotionally draining). If I'm really tired I may need to limit our discussions to the weekends only and I hope you understand this> Also, the very nature of the topic of spirituality will often require me to actually "process" things that have been said (ie to mull things over in my head) before I can give a coherent response to some posts.
Just be rest assured that I WILL in fact be responding. Again, accept my apologies for not getting back to you sooner. I have in fact been feeling rather guilty about this fact. Once I've been back at work for a while I won't have any problems giving you my email address to discuss issues that may not be relevant or appropriate on the PB main social board.
See you on the Social Board soon
warm regards
bluedog
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