Posted by utopizen on January 10, 2003, at 21:17:47
In reply to Re: ? on treatments for ADHD with SP, posted by cybercafe on January 8, 2003, at 23:25:53
> parnate didn't work for my ADD .... but then neither is 40 mg ritalin SRHey- did you try Adderall, and did that work? How about Desoxyn? Desoxyn, at the right dose, is likely to work rather well... and the refractory ADD types tend to be the only ones privileged to get it.
Guess what my p-doc told me today? Basically, he wants me to ignore my anxiety for the sake of keeping my ADD at bay, so I don't take anything that makes me foggy in the head.
I even told him I was only having difficulty staying on task because I need regular release of my sex. tension to focus, and that was what screwed me up because I couldn't orgasm on Effexor all last semester (and to make matters worse, it didn't do a thing for my social anxiety anyway!!)
So I just weaned off the Effexor, and now I can finally focus by having my tension relieved (and no, it's not that I'm thinking about sex, it's just that the chemicals released after orgasm keep me focused).
But because I messed up and got 1.7 GPA this semester, he's so concerned all of a sudden that if I take something like Klonopin or Soma or whatever it'll make me too foggy to deal with schoolwork. Nevermind the fact that if I never saw him, I'd never get Effexor, and I would have done just fine with my GPA.
And I explained to him Klonopin and Adderall work well together for me, but he's just a benzophobe, so now it seems he won't even give me the 15 .5mg prn he gave me every 3 months before (as if that was a lot!).
ugggg..... I was just thinking, I've been in treatment with him for over a year now, and he's not treated my anxiety. And every humiliating experience I've had in the past year was directly spurred on by my social anxiety-- from drinking and making a fool of myself to acting so nervous it's just as humiliating to face a person the next day as if they saw me drunk.
And I feel miserable as a result. And like I said, all of these things, they could have easily been avoided- I mean, they all happened while I was seeing him, and he knew Klonopin worked for me.
I mean, seriously, incredibly attractive girls I really liked (and was at first liked by) I humiliated myself in front of, all avoidable if I had Klonopin. How pathetic is that? And then the "treatment" he gives me that doesn't do anything just makes me so unfocused my GPA is two tenths above that which would have kicked me out of my Ivy-league school.
Seriously, one of these girls I would likely marry for sure, we both wanted to enter the same career, etc. That sounds silly, but I'm not out of line there. anyway, it's just pathetic. I want my wasted year back....
I don't even have any drug abuse history whatsoever. And he things the very remote chance I met get addicted to Klonopin outweight not getting treated? Guess what he gave me today? Atarax! I laughed out loud for 2 minutes before getting myself up to the door. He looked startled. I figure I may as well find some humor in his incompetence, otherwise I'd be balling my eyes out instead.
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