Posted by lam on January 17, 2003, at 17:35:23
In reply to Bipolar, Alcoholic, or Totally Normal?, posted by pork chop on January 16, 2003, at 21:35:34
> Sometimes I'm great and I'm thinking, Wow, this Lamictal stuff is awesome. Other times I get sooooo low. I'm swinging throughout the day. I'm bored, antsy, restless and desperate. Once I start to feel better something minor will spiral me into an angry rage and then I wind up back in the same crappy depression that I just got out of. This happens almost every day.
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> Anytime I add alcohol I'm guaranteed two days worth of depression. But I enjoy drinking and I'm having a hard time not going out with friends on the weekends, or coworkers after work. Everyone says you can have fun without the booze, but I think that's garbage. What fun is it to stand in a bar sober when everyone else is buzzed?
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> I just can't find any balance in life. I get a promotion, I ask for a bigger promotion. A guy is remotely intersted in me, I'm picking out the honeymoon destination. It's all or nothing with relationships, work, shopping, vacations etc... Am I an alcoholic, do I have bipolar, or am I completely normal and this is how everyone feels? I'm obviously in a bad mood right now, but who knows, I might be fine in 10 minutes...
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> oh yeah, I'm on 100 mg. Lamictal and take Klonopin as needed.
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> Hope I didn't just bring everybody down, but I feel better after venting so thanks!I don't think you are an alcoholic. I understand exactly what your saying about the alcohol, and I don't believe things change, no matter how old you get (not for me anyway). Moving from career to family and kids it's always there in social settings. Everyone is either out at the bars or at parties. Everyone I know is drinking and if your not, everyone wants to know why your not. Every weekend theres something going on and even when I don't feel like going it's alot easier to go and have a drink. And frankly the jokes aren't as funny and it's not as much fun without it. Hey for me it's no fun at all. I don't drink everyday, I'm not an alcoholic right? but when I go out I like my wine. But I didn't realize the efffect of alcohol on AD. And I don't want to feel the way I do. I'm very much all or nothing. Sorry now I got a little carried away.
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