Posted by deli on January 29, 2003, at 17:31:52
In reply to In the depths of depression--please help, posted by cubbybear on January 25, 2003, at 9:06:03
HI Cubbybear
Last year, I used to surf this site everyday, several times a day. I was suffering the worst episode of my life (and the previous ones were horrible!). I remember finding a certain kind of comfort everytime someone answered my posts. This is a horrible disease.
Many times I prayed to God to give me cancer or something else but not depression. The worst part of this illness is the fear and hopelesness we feel. I haven't posted here for about a year, but periodically I check in to see how everyone is doing or what is new in treatments. You will get better and don't let your brain fool you. I thought I had the worst case of depression in the entire world and I would never get better. But this illness has a beginning, a middle, and an end. The fact that you are feeling a lift if for only one second is a good sign. Keep on taking your meds and don't give up just yet. You still have a couple of weeks before you could see more results. If not, it may take switching meds later on, but I assure you will get better. I had to switch three different times.
Depression is not a disease of the new world. Asians also get depressed. They just don't talk about it. It is still stigmatized as in many other countries. Even here in the U.S. is looked down upon.
One thing that helped immensely was reading the book The Noonday Demon and I think the author goes by the last name Solomon. Reading it made me feel understood. It is easy to read. I hope you can get it in Thailand.
Feel free to post everyday all day if you have to . We all care and we all have been there and some of us are still there. The people in this board are the most caring people you will ever encounter. Don't give up. Soon you will be writing this same letter to someone who is feeling like you.
poster:deli
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