Posted by LyndaK on February 18, 2003, at 1:57:55
In reply to Re: For LyndaK--depression emergency, posted by cubbybear on February 17, 2003, at 0:39:56
> LYNDA,
> You have not the slightest idea what I'm going through now. I had to go to the dermatologist yesterday. Have folliculitis, have to take strong penicillin 2x per day. (Normally I do well on penicillin and am never allergic) but this stuff gave me some diarrhea), plus ointment which I have to apply to several places, mostly on my foot. My body has evidently been weakened so my defenses were down. In any case, I'm at a new and dangerous low, in terms of feeling practically non-functional, terrified of the future, having enough pocket money for the trip, fearing additional costly visits to the hospital for the skin problem. i could go on and on. I'm an absolute mess and truly wonder how I will ever get through this, get those meds, be able to drag myself onto the plane. The word used in cognitive therapy is "catastrophizing" i.e. imagining the worst of the worst and I simply can't stop it at all. please stay in touch. Maybe I'll write again tonight.
Yikes! Folliculitis -- I know that means "inflammation of the follicles" but other than the literal translation I don't really know what it is. Sounds painful. Chronic stress/anxiety can really depress your immune system and can also make you more susceptible to GI problems.I agree that .5mg of Xanax seems like a "drop-in-the-bucket" where your anxiety is concerned, but I hope you are taking that consistently regardless of how insignificant it seems.
I wish I knew what else to say. My mind pictures a nice grandmotherly type woman taking you under her wing and feeding you the Thai version of "chicken soup". I wish you had that now.
Keep hanging in there, Steve.
I'll keep looking for your posts.
Lynda
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