Posted by seemsnormal on February 18, 2003, at 9:30:56
I have been seeing a therapist and taking anti-D's for about five years now, but I'm trying to address another problem. I think I am a sexual addict, or sexual compulsive.
I believe I may have irreperably screwed up a relationship that was just in the rebuilding stages, thanks to my behavior. I had made plans over this Valentine's Day weekend to cheat on my boyfriend.
I dont want absolution in a diagnosis, I just want to know if other people out there are dealing with this. I feel despicable and low, selfish, mean and dirty right now. I am hitting a SCA meeting tonight, so I'll see how that goes. I quit drinking and drugs more than 10 years ago, but never had had the rock-bottom feeling I have now. The difference is I have hurt somebody I love so much. I've done this sort of thing before, and I think I may have blown my last chance. It would be too much to expect him to trust me again, but I have got to make some change. I want to be rid of this.
Anybody here have any experience with 12-step groups for this kind of thing?
My shrink doesnt really know the extent of this behavior. I have kept it even from him, because I am so ashamed of it. Talk to me, somebody.
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