Posted by Eddie Sylvano on February 24, 2003, at 11:51:16
In reply to SSRIs - Social Anxiety vs Existential Angst?, posted by Alara on February 24, 2003, at 5:32:44
> Sometimes I wonder if I sold my soul to drugs. At other times I wonder if I had any choice at all.
-----------------Is it really that much of a difference? Is who you are defined solely by your propensity for emotion? For most people, being anxious or depressed is the abnormality, keeping them from functioning "normally." My struggles with anxiety/depression have shown me that there isn't really any objective "me," but an ever changing expression of my current brain state. Unmedicated, I'm apathetic, sad, and tense. Medicated, I'm relatively happy and relaxed. Two different personalities, same brain. I'm always still working from the same beliefs and values, though. I'm always relatively quiet and try to be compassionate. I still love the same people and hate the same things. I think it's just a matter of deciding what really makes you happier: drugs or no. Nothing wrong with going off meds if it makes you feel better. If the meds really do make you feel better but you still pine for your "self," maybe it's more of a neurotic concern for purity that you feel than a true sadness over the loss.
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