Posted by utopizen on June 30, 2003, at 18:16:47
In reply to Re: Provigil Vets - A Question, posted by jemma on June 30, 2003, at 12:14:18
> I find provigil a lifesaver. It lets me wake up, stay awake, get things done. I take 100 mg twice a day, and if I forget a dose, my mood drops and I start to feel like a nap.
>I envy you. I'm in an out-of-state internship. And trust me, enough drug fiends envy me for it, but I don't envy myself for it-- the Desoxyn (methamphetamine HCL) I take for my ADD leaves me crashed and depressed by the end of the day, tired during the day, so crashed by the time I leave work I cry. And I'm 19, with absolutely no history of depression. It doesn't happen on days I don't take it.
I have fatigue during the day, even after 10 hours of sleep. So if I don't take it, I'll be tired. And can't concentrate. But if I do take Desoxyn, I'll feel painfully tired in a few hours after taking it, and depressed by the end of the day.
It's not Desoxyn, it's me on Desoxyn. Desoxyn was, and still is, a great med. I even suggest people try it if they've had too much from side-effects of others (but try Dexedrine first). But for whatever reason, Desoxyn has me crashing on it these days, and this just started a month ago. It was fine when I started taking it in December. Even Ritalin did this to me after a few months, I can't stay on the same med for too long or it causes dysphoria.
But getting back to Provigil, I envy you because my p-doc won't return my calls, and my GP here won't prescribe it because he feels overwhelmed with all my meds (oh no, a saliva stimluant Evoxac, Minocycline, an antibiotic for acne, Desoxyn for ADD, Klonopin for Social Anxiety, Nalodol, a beta blocker for social anxiety).
So everyday is hell. I'm sure I'll eventually get it. I just called home and burst into tears, so depressed from Desoxyn's crash today and the hopelessness of not having a doctor return your calls. My dad said he'd give my doctor a call, tell him to stop ignoring me. I never thought about that, that gives me some hope it'll scare him into calling me back finally.
If he doesn't call back tomorrow, I'm calling the colleague that referred me to him and my former p-doc, another colleague who "admires him" or whatever, at this prestigious hospital, and telling him he doesn't answer his calls.
Then I'm sure there's some ombudsman for the hospital (his office is at a huge Boston hospital), that's definitely going to here from me. I'm not a very assertive person until I realize my passitivity is being taken advantage of. Then that's when I start to shock people. People really get scared of me when they see me in action on the phone, my roommates are like "let me know if I ever get on your bad list so I can get off it." I don't let people get away taking advantage of my politeness.
If it wasn't for this guy, who promised me he would phone scripts in on a Thursday, I would have avoided a trip to the ER on the following Tuesday after 2 nights of not sleeping.
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