Posted by catachrest on September 4, 2003, at 15:29:44
In reply to I FEEL AS IF I AM GONNA HARM OTHERS?, posted by crazychickuk on September 4, 2003, at 15:00:38
I don't know what's normal, and I've never been on remeron, but I think as long as you are recognizing the problems with the feelings you're having and the vision you saw, as long as you understand the wrongness of harming others and really want not to harm them, you retain the capacity to choose not to do it. It may be a harder choice, but you can still choose.
Lately I've been having thoughts about suicide - never really wanted to do it, but I <i>think</i> about it too much, and that scares the heck out of me. But I know I can choose and that I choose not to. It's when I start justifying it to myself, realize that somehow I'm talking myself towards it rather than away from it, that I get really scared and go find someone to hang around with until the feeling passes. I know that, if I'm with someone, especially a close friend or family member (for me it's usually my sister), I wouldn't be able to go through with anything, and that after awhile the feeling will pass.
If my experience is anything to go by, I would recommend that you take comfort in your knowledge that you have the ability to choose not to do harm to anyone, and that when you start to have feelings or compulsions that scare you, that you recognize as wrong, immediately go and find someone you trust to hang out with, someone who will distract you and keep you from being alone with your feelings. Phone someone. Go get a coffee. Get on a bus and just ride it around the city for awhile. Just be around people and let them be your safety net.
Hope this helps,
Susan
> I am taking 15mg remeron every night for nearly 7 weeks now, i am abit afraid to up the dose as this is the ONLY med that has been ok with me as every single ssri snri and trylic gave me bad side affects... anyways.. one day i am ok hypo, mind doing overtime then the next day i am low and when my freind comes with her baby i gets a vision (picture in my head) that i am harming him, like i am gonna do something that is wrong kinda thing i dont want to tell you all as i am scared to say... anyways is this normal? i am scared to tell anybody..
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> Thankyou
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