Posted by babak on September 9, 2003, at 19:05:32
Is there anyone out there who has tried VNS? I am thinking of giving it a go as my last option.
I have had it; I have fought this monster for the last eighteen years. It has been an uphill struggle, mostly against NHS. I have had 8 years of psychoanalysis & psychotherapy and then Cognitive Behavioral Therapy which by the way I think it is only suitable for the intellectually challenged. I have lost everything starting with my family and money. I have been getting progressively worse over the years. In eighteen years there have been only two occasions when I haven’t been depressed; once for four glorious weeks after I started on Remeron and Effexor combination and two weeks after a course of ECT.The irony is that I used to be scared of suicide but since I started on Paxil six months ago, I no longer suffer from feelings of anxiety which I think used to induce my fear of suicide. Now suicide doesn't seems scary at all and I have lost everything there was to lose anyway. As for the rest I feel no joy, not even for my memories. All there is; is sadness, pain and frustration.
What a waste of eigtheen years
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