Posted by katia on September 25, 2003, at 16:17:56
In reply to Re: Oh I'm an interesting case all right... » chicklet, posted by BarbaraCat on September 25, 2003, at 14:12:04
Hi Barb,
Re: what you wrote:
>>I always know when I'm getting a bit too high on the manic scale because I start hearing heavenly choirs and angelic voices, everything is 'according to prophesy'. I like to stay in this mystic window for a little while because I've gotten some amazing insights and gifts from the visions in this rarified place. It's as though there's an energetic frequency I pass through that allows me to pick up the 'psychic channel' on my psyche-antenna. But alas, it then disintegrates into total chaos and a black agitated depression where I doubt everything, especially glorious visions. The angelic choirs turn into the legions of hell and follow me into the depression - voila, mixed states! So, I miss the raptures but not the hell.Have you ever experienced this w/o being in a "manic" phase? I have. But it feels like when my energy is clean and clear (normally when I haven't drunk anything for awhile), and I'm at a what do they call it euthymic mood or slightly maybe slightly elevated. I wonder if it has to do with the up or just when the black blinding cloud of depression lifts off of our sensitive perceptions....?
interesting.BTW, I've been thinking that I may try Trileptal before Li. I've heard the s/e are minimal. I'm going to slowly come off Dep. as I slowly titrate up on Lam. I'm on 10mg now and my pdoc said it's really like being on 20mg b/c I'm on Depakote too. And I'm porking out a bit......even w/ the diet and L-Carnitine. I guess it could be worse; i've only gained a few pounds, not 50 like some people I've heard about.
Katia
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