Posted by race on October 2, 2003, at 21:11:55
In reply to Re: Opioids and Depression, posted by Kon-shuss on September 13, 2003, at 7:57:51
i so know what you're talking about, and i managed to find a doctor sympathetic to my needs and he hooked me up with some hydrochodone-and warned me very carefully about the dangers associated with taking this medication for anything but pain-and for the first six months i happily giggled that i didnt have a problem, none of the dependency or side effects, i had found a real solution to my depression and i was elated!...until....six months into it the hydrochodone stopped working, oxycodone stopped working...no opiate on the planet would work-i even bought dried poppies and brewed poppie tea trying to find someway to revive the anti-depressant effects of opium and opium derivitives, and i spiraled even deeper into my maze of sorrow.
here i am-six months after that-i'm over the withdrawls and cravings, the body aches and drug induced depression is gone and i'm still left with my initial problem-i'm still depressed. the only thing that will help me now is to identify the source/cause of my malcontent and (there are usually many, and they're usually burried in denial, anger and confusion) and tackle it head on.
i know, depression is a chemicle imbalance-but your body cannot-simply CANNOT restore the natural balance until whatever is triggering the imbalance is addressed. i took zoloft, then paxil, then plain old prozak to no avail-i'd feel better for awhile then i'd go right back to being in the pits of despair-because i had not addressed the root of the issue.
that's just my theory anyway-if there were no underlying issue, then anti depressants should put me back on an even keele-some outside stimulus is causing my brain to adjust and put me back into sadness-some issue i cant seem to face no matter how i dig and delve.
just a word of warning from someone who's been down the opiate brick road-there is no emerald city at the end, only more fear and pain.
i offer all my love and support to you, and i wish with all my heart that you find what you need, what you're looking for and that the veil of rain clouds rains itself out leaving you with green fields and happy flowers.
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