Posted by femlite on October 12, 2003, at 0:18:13
In reply to Re: I AM SO WASTED PLEASE HELP, posted by DSCH on October 11, 2003, at 20:20:12
Short version
Thank you all for being there. I was so unable to funtion I was laying on the kichen table to see the screen and see if any one would respond before I wrote more, It was so hard to type.
I Got so bad I had to go to bed. Im sorry
I hope I did not scare you all.Slightly longer version
Ive have a pdoc whos changing all my meds and shaking things up it seems, cant quit make heads or tales of whats going on at the moment
I feel like Im in the midst of proto culture war.
The last pdoc put me on WB xl. And a small sonat scrip she begrudgenly gave me to sleep. I call to have it refilled befor the week end hit and ended up in a shouting match with receptionsist.Next pdoc, I was told he was a little more creative and might at least consider the the WB was inducing mania. He mumbled something about it the scprit pen began to fly and in my hads were 2 benzodiazpines and lithium prescription. That was yesterday.
I cant figur out what he wants me to do. I think he wants me to just stop the WB. I suggested that might mess me up a bit to jsut drop it , he assured me I would be okay , "it was all in my head"
Realizing my consternation and the sounds of "work, work, I have to work" assaulting his hears, he capitualted "cut the WB in half".Yesterday evening I came home took the Lorazepam 1 mg and Lithium 450 mg he gave me, along with the Neurontin 300mg, before bed and figured I could skip the 10 mg of Ambien he gave me for sleep. No problem sleeping
Today, Im suppose to take the girls to riding lessons. I dont know what these other drugs are going to do. I try to play it safe I take 1/2 the WB xl, And because Ive been a little jumpy and overey excited all morn (my family calls it screaming at them :) I take the Ativan before we leave.
Every thing seemed to go fine, except when I tried to speack with one of the other mothers and my lips werent quite working. She was polite and smiled alot.
I got home, worked on getting the girls ready for a sleep over. Dad got them all loaded in the van. And I took another Ativan. I figured one pill at 9am and another at 2-3pm seemed evenly spaced.
I was okay for a while, wathched a movie and folded laundry. Im not sure when it really hit. I looked outside and realized the anmials had to be fed and I was the only one home. I was really feeling ill and unstable by then. The horse just got extra hey , i couldnt manage measureing grain, I just let the dogs into the house, scooped food in their dishes and put the gate up and fell on the bed. I tried to watch tv, and even though I was so unsteady I felt like doing something, and a drink suddenly sounded real good. I opened it, took one sip, and realized I was too far down the road alreadly. I was really hot and went round opening all the windows, changed all my clothe. I came in here to chat and check my mail, and i could not si up.
I managed to type the sos. I laid on the floor waiting to see if someone was around, it got so bad, I fell asleep on the kitchen floor. I woke up an hour ago and here you are.
Thank you
If I thought I was gonna die, as much as I love you all , Id still call 911So this is Lorazepam?
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