Posted by cbwarejr on October 28, 2003, at 11:11:20
In reply to Re: Temazepam Dependent? » cbwarejr, posted by Ame Sans Vie on October 28, 2003, at 6:51:15
She got off the parnate because she was really feeling the effects of "artificial sleep" from the continued use of tamezepam.
SHe is a teacher, and used the summer to get off things for a few weeks to see what it was like.
However, it was only 3 weeks before things got crappy for her again.
SHe has not been totally up front with her MD Psych about how she feels. Fortunately, she does let me go along and put in my viewpoint, which is totally different than hers of course.
Being in the bad state she is, there is at the moment nothing but doom and gloom, life is really bad, nothing will change etc.
She had been seeing the same Doc for years, but as we only got recently married she has been to see him alone. So he only got her side of things based on how she was feeling at the time of the visit. Now, as important, is how I see her doing because my input is helpful to the Doc.
Another problem is with her other "state of mind" in which she said if I ever talked to her family or doctors about her, and I did not tell her, she would "end things". This is a big emotional blackmail trip on me. She really leads two lives, the one she is able to put up at work and in front of friends, and to a degree with the kids. The other is the person who is severly depressed. On one talk with her MD, he said, "man I had no clue as to some of the things that go on because she never told me".
Well of course not. She feels so bad about herself that revealing anything that reflects badly on her makes her even feel worse. SHe does have some type of Personality Disorder, there is no question.
She is brilliant, a good mom, a sharp gal, a stunner to look at, funny, everything I married her for. But she sees nothing of that right now, and the depression of course has deadened her loving, kind, compassionate side.
I at times, normally I think, feel rejected, as though I don't exist and my feelings are irrevelant. It is hard to realize just really where she is at mentally. SHe won't go to couples therapy, because talking to her about the negatives of how I feel when she is depressed adds to that depression. Does this make any sense.
Over the last 6 months, she has also gone from very sexual to a state where now even touching her bothers her. Seperate problem though I guess. It is all so intertwined and complicated.
My gut is that she will go back on nardil or parnate, and that the Doc with our input will also prescribe something else to help, but I have no clue.
Thanks
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