Posted by linkadge on October 31, 2003, at 17:40:17
Of all the 5ht2a receptor antagonists I have tried to counteract insomnia from Celexa (Remeron, trazedone, periactin, seroquel) All seem to have an interesting effect on my personality.
Celexa normaly makes me feel very independant - infact it almost makes me feel panicky at the thought of conforming. It almost gives me reward for feeling independant. I never use cliche's and amost go out of my way to try and not fit in. It makes me constantly question familiarity. As well as feel totally adverse to any sex. It is amost as if it its anti-obsessive effects have gone in the opposite direction, making me unable to get into any pattern at all.
When I take a 5ht2a receptor antagonist I have some strange effects. All of the above behavior ceases, and I become obsessive. I can get into things like music, and projects. I am very easily taken by a catchy rhythm or a beautiful person.
My sleep changes and I find myself using familiar phrases all of the time. I don't feel quite as alert, and find myself daydreaming more often, thinking of past times. A lot more able to drift off and forget my surroundings. It makes my past seem very interesting and important. Unlike celexa alone which makes me contstantly looking to the future. I enjoy doing things like watching movies which I can bearly sit through on Celexa alone.On celexa alone it is like my brain is constantly trying to wake up, as if the current reality cannot fully be trusted. It makes me suspicious of people. I find myself needing to hide in a room away from everybody for a little bit each day. I get panicy when I feel like people are trying to steal my independance. On Celexa alone, sharing a room with somebody would be unbearable. With a 5ht2a antagonst I would enjoy the company.
Finally on Celexa alone, I have little sensitivity to rejection, but with a 5ht2a antagonist I become more tuned into what others feel about me. I feel more lonely, and more needing of other's presence. On celexa alone I feel very present, but often too present, oftentimes I am so present that suspence seems unbearable. If I were married, Celexa would make me want a divorse, but in combination with a 5ht2a antagonist, I would need that attachment.
On celexa alone, I totally cannot even understand why anyone would want to get married. With a 5ht2a antagonist I can totally understand why people would want that.
Don't know what to make of all this though.Just some thoughts.
Linkadge
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