Posted by Harlock on November 3, 2003, at 12:13:44
In reply to Thanks all, posted by socialdeviantjeff on November 3, 2003, at 1:25:34
> I really appreciate your responses. It's good to know that there are people like you out there. I just hope one day to be able to pay it back or pay it forward.
>Hang in there Jeff. I know, I hate that line too. I really do feel for ya, as I do for anyone who shares this curse we suffer from. After changing many jobs over the years I finally found one that has a manager that at least partially sympathizes with my problems.
Well, I've been here two years, and only 6 months of it has been under a decent manager, who cuts me some slack. The last manager almost wound himself up underground (though he had/has no idea of this. I'm rambling.. go figure.
Like another person said, don't worry about the credit. It can be repaired. That's not important anyway. I would seriously consider self-admidding yourself somewhere. You'll be around others with similar problems, and maybe you'll find some meds that will help you.
I haven't had much luck with meds, but being off them now isn't working either, so I'm going back to the drawing board. People keep talking about Nardil. I'm going to look into this.
I'm a mess right now actually. Sitting in my cube with my jacket on - ready to run for the door. I don't want to talk to anyone, do any work, or do anything else for that matter. I want my bed. It's the only place I feel safe. I really want to leave, but I don't want to get into a car right now. Quite honestly, I don't have the energy to drive. I feel pretty hopeless, much like your email sounded. I really hear you. It's nice to know other people know what this is like.
Ok, I'll stop now.. too many random thoughts spinning around.
Take care, and please don't do anything dangerous, if you know what I mean. Moods can change, even though we may not have the capacity to beleive that, especially at our lowests moments.
poster:Harlock
thread:275674
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20031030/msgs/276086.html